I eat weird. Really weird. For breakfast today, I had a concoction of navy beans, corn, bbq sauce and cayenne pepper.
I went to the store this morning, intending to stock up on a few staple items that I consider "safe recovery" foods, things that will help heal my body from the damage I've caused with my ED. When I know the nutritional benefits of eating something, I'm not as likely to succumb to guilt and purge it.
I've trolled the internet looking for ED recovery meal plan ideas and....they all seem so unrealistic and commercialized, and.....perfect. It's more triggering than helpful. Lately, I've been trolling the internet looking for food plans and recipes from people who are recovering themselves, rather than ideas from the professionals. I'm insanely interested in what other recovering ED sufferers eat. I've toyed with the idea of posting what I eat every day but I don't want to trigger other people. In the past, tracking my food has been an unhealthy obsession. I'm starting to wonder though, if I can redeem that obsession and bust through some food shame, while promoting the sharing of ideas.
My safest food foundation has been what I experienced at Tiger Mt. Structure and routine, plus constant exposure to cooking and food preparation that ranged from quick and easy to needing to read recipes. I also was able to watch how other people ate...people with and without food hangups.
Anyway. I could ramble on about this forever. I'm off to troll the internet for more ideas. :)